song one: these dark days don't last long
so all y'all know that this is our very first song for our 50 for $50 campaign to raise money for our tuition and living expenses for our second year of ministry school. we can't thank you enough for believing in us, for supporting us, for all your sweet love notes of encouragement, and to the many of you who have sent us $50, $75, $100, $250, $500, and even $1000: ummm... wow!! we have been moved to tears time and again by your generosity and kindness. we could not be here preparing for the ministry God has called us to without you, and we pray for blessing and favor on your lives as you sow into ours. thank you from the bottom of our hearts!
our song this week isn't the one we'd planned on recording. Noah wrote a sweet little song on the banjo at sunrise last week and we intended for that to be our first, but someone special has really been on our hearts the last few weeks, so this first song is for Marquette. for those of you who don't know, Marquette is an amazing young woman engaged to a very dear friend of ours, and four weeks ago she had a heart attack. after more than 30 minutes of chest compressions they were able to get a pulse... and despite oxygen deprivation, and another heart attack where the doctors stopped working on her and her heart then started beating again on its own, Marquette just keeps on amazing us all! with so many people across the globe praying for her, we've decided to open this first song up for everyone who loves Marquette and all her dear ones... Marquette, your story affects us all, and has brought so many closer together and closer to God. you are a miracle in the making!
i (Julie Jane) started writing this song four years ago when i had uterine cancer. my dear friend, Gabriela, came to visit me and reassuringly said something that just wouldn't let me go: these dark days don't last long. about a month after being diagnosed, at a time of great doubt and confusion and honestly feeling quite hopeless, i sang it out — it was an act of utter defiance and hope filled my heart. but despite my many efforts, i could not get past the chorus. most of you know already that i was healed — and without chemo! the doctor yelled and pounded his fist on the table and told me it was NOT possible, that it would not, could not go away without treatment. but after two months, the cancer was half gone. i consented to a second surgery, and despite the doctor telling me he "didn't really get anything" and the lab confirming he was correct, the cancer continued to diminish, and after another 6 weeks, i was declared cancer free! God is the God of the impossible. He heals and He makes alive.
... and yet my song remained unsung. i seldom thought much about it until this spring, when a series of people in dark and dire circumstances kept bringing this song to my heart and mind. i toyed with the verses over the summer and then tuesday i just couldn't stop thinking about Marquette. that she is alive is a miracle (twice over), the progress she has made in the last month is miraculous, and yet she needs a miracle even still. so i sat down under the stars late tuesday night, with Marquette's big beautiful eyes staring at me in my mind and an amber moon staring at me in the sky, and i wrote, and i rewrote, and at long last... it is done and my heart is full.
we all have dark days. dark days are a fact. and sometimes dark days can get really dark and feel really hopeless. it's obvious to anyone that feelings aren't always true, but actually facts aren't necessarily truth either — and there is something SO powerful about screaming what IS true in the face of our feelings and even our circumstances. so with this song, we give you permission to hope, and to be FULL of hope, despite what your eyes see and your mind comprehends and your emotions feel. we give you permission to believe the unbelievable. we give you permission to pray for the impossible.
and so we would ask that you would sing this song with us over Marquette. let this song be your prayer for her. so Lord, we pray that Marquette's heart and lungs would be strengthened, that she would be able to breathe on her own again, that the pathways in her brain would be established and reestablished, that she would find her voice and be able to speak again, that her recovery would pick up momentum and take on a life of its own... and we declare over Marquette that NOTHING IS LOST!
click to download: these days
these dark days don't...
so i will hope on
there for a time
this weary heart and wounded mind
was all i knew
and then came You
and when You came
You sent Your word and healed my pain
where could i hide
You alone have the words of life
so i'll believe when You say nothing... nothing is lost
and i will cling to You no matter what it costs
oh Lord, You know
You're my hope... You're my hope
these dark days don't...
so i will hope on
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love, love, love,
julie jane, noah star, + little moses moon.